Why do I put up with you?
It's a question she asks me at least once a week. I've been thinking a lot about Fae today, so let me try to answer.
Dear Fae,
Why do I? You can be a pain, demanding, irrational, stubborn, annoying, and even drive me to want to go screaming into the night. So why on earth would I stay? Why would I 'put up with all of your shit and baggage and bullshit' as you so often put it?
And no, it's not anything as corny as 'you complete me'.
It all comes down to, You UNDERSTAND me. I may have given you a base or a platform for you to crawl out of that raging sea that has been your life for the first 25 years to stand steadily on and get your bearings, but you have been the rock that I can cling to while I dip my feet into the sea of growth and change discover who I am and who I want to be. You make me into a better man, a better husband, a better father and a better friend. You've allowed me to see inside myself, to show me things I haven't know about myself, and at times, smashed me over the head with a reality mirror to clear the way for me to see who I am, and what I am capable of.
Why do I stay with you? I stay with you because you are my best friend. I stay with you because you need me and I need you as we find ways to become more interdependent and less dependent. You amaze me with your capability for growth and change, and inspire me to try and do the same for myself. You are my greatest critic and my greatest champion at the same time.
I stay with you because you are everything I need right now, and will be for me tomorrow, next week, next year, next life.
I love you my Fae, and I always will.
Your,
Matthew