getting confident
I’ve been mulling things over and I have come to a conclusion. I’m fairly decent at my job. I have periods of time when I feel like I can’t get anything done, mixed with periods of “DUDE YOU FUCKIN SUCK” but lately I’ve been handling things better and getting a feeling that I can not only do my job, but do it well. I’ve done several things in the last several months that have both helped and hindered me in my quest to become more efficient.
First and foremost, I’m ignoring the bright new shiny technologies unless I can see a true return on looking into the possibility of using it. If it’s not going to require a full re-write on functionality that already works, then I’ll consider it.
Most importantly, I got an intern for the summer, who after his first week I am glad to say is picking things up quickly. Before he started, I really had to take a solid look at how I was accomplishing things and see if ‘this’ was the best way to do it or ‘that’ was. It helped me clean up a lot of the procedures of my daily job and document some of them, and at least get the others in order. One of the first orders of business for the intern, document the rest of the procedures as he is taught them
And with all humility aside, I think I’m doing a pretty good job with my first foray into management. I’m feeling good that I’m not overloading him, that I’m keeping the topics fairly broad to give him the overall picture as well as some fine details on one or two projects that I want him to get working on more fully this week coming up. Should be a good week
I’m also feeling a lot more confident physically. I’ve been working out more than once every two weeks, and the mostly regular workouts are helping me in kendo and in jujitsu. Today’s class was pretty good, tho fairly hot in black gi’s in Sensei’s backyard. The nice thing about right now is we had some guys from Princeton Univ. who are gone for the summer and a few guys are on vacation right now so it was a good class with just four of us. It always allows for more intensive training when there are less people because Sensei can spend more time helping you refine your technique. He kept it pretty light because it was fairly hot in the sun, and really worked on the fine points of jujitsu, sword, staff, and short staff.
I was huffing at one point, but I wasn’t feeling ill, or ready to pass out like I had been feeling when I first started going back to class in January.
Hope this finds everyone happy and healthy.
June 8th, 2009 at 2:12 am
I think your first paragraph describes the feelings a lot of us have had through our years of employment. But as in everything, time will get you through it and you’ll find your success…
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June 8th, 2009 at 10:48 pm
sometimes, i look at my pictures and think “dude, you fuckin suck. you blew what could have been the best pictures”. and then other times i think i rocked it. the rocked it ones are coming more often and i’d like to think i’m learning from the fuckin sucked ones. i know i’m my own worst critic. but really, how can you not be?
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June 8th, 2009 at 10:50 pm
and thanks for being so open and honest here on your blog. i love reading your entries. so many speak right to what i’m feeling too.
good for you on the workouts and the job. i know you must be rockin it all!!
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June 8th, 2009 at 11:45 pm
Beth: I’m really glad you read and that it gives you something. I’m totally honest on my blog because in the end it’s really for me. I really think that this blog is really more for therapy for what’s going on in my own head and I have always been better about figuring out things when I write.