My wife is fond of saying “Perception is the all”, and I agree. How you perceive things is how they are…for you. Perception dictates how we see a thing, a situation, a problem, a gift. It dictates not only how you see it, but how you’ll react to it. Control is a tricky thing, take too much, and your bossy or obnoxious. Take too little, and people walk over you, or you don’t feel like you matter.
I think the thing I have learned this week is to be active in your life. Take part in the decisions you can influence or help, and move forward and don’t concern yourself with the things you aren’t and shouldn’t be involved in. Too many times we’re so caught up in she said this, or he did that, and we get stuck on that thing, or event or whatever it is. I think the key is to continue to be involved in things, but don’t let the negative stuff weigh you down too much. Have a positive attitude about something that might be negative, and it’s not necessarily going to always come up roses, but maybe it won’t stick quite so bad as it would have if you had indulged in the negativity. And maybe, MAYBE, you can learn something from it and grow in your experience.
I never thought I was a jealous person by nature, but I think that I do have issues with it. I’ve gotten caught up in what I did or didn’t get, what I did or didn’t deserve to the point where I start feeling sick from holding it in or stewing over it. Rather than looking at what someone else has or what I didn’t get, I need to concentrate on what I do have and what I do deserve, and the real why of what is involving me and not anyone else. I think by concentrating more on me, instead of on everyone else, I can find my real talent and my real gifts. For a long time I have never felt good enough, or that I knew enough to be entrusted with responsibility. I always wondered why I was never really getting anywhere, in multiple aspects of my life, and felt like I was spinning my wheels, or waiting for that ‘thing’.
I’m done with that. I’m done with reacting to things in a negative manner or getting involved in things that I see as negative. I’ve learned that a lot of it is bullshit, a lot of it doesn’t concern me, and that my perception of things in many cases are not what they seem. I just sat for too long, brewing up things surrounding this event or that thing, making it all worse in my own head, or completely misunderstanding things and making something out of nothing.
Time to move forward. Time to get things done. Time to take a handle on my life, tell people how I feel sooner, and not sit on things making them worse or being eaten up my misconception.
Nice thing about the new attitude is it coincides with my promotion 🙂 I’m the new Application Development Manager for my company 🙂 I’m in charge of just about everything that I’ve built so far, plus a lot of projects we’re going to be building in the near future now that the MONDOPROJECTFROMHELL is done 🙂 Yes, thank goodness, that biggun is over 🙂