Surgery thoughts
(yes, I'm still typing one handed)
How many of you have had surgery where you are put under? Anyone have thoughts/fantasies that you would wake up? That you'd suffer some weird aneurysm and just die and leave everyone to keep living?
Yeah, I know, irrational. Until my Dr. came in, I was super nervous. He showed up and it was gone. I mean nothing, no nervousness, nothing. The even cooler thing was when I thought about the anesthesiologist, I thought it'd be cool to have the guy who put me under for my colonoscopy, and two seconds later, he walks up.
Talk about feeling like I was in good hands:)
The prep room was the weirdest for me b/c I'm usually the one to be making Fae feel better or more secure and here I was, the one who needed reassuring. She was good, cracking me up when I needed it, and just holding my hand when I needed that.
All in all it was fine, and everything worked out. The doc even called me before dinner to check on me:)
In a bit of pain now, so gonna watch a movie for a while.
July 2nd, 2010 - 23:07
I didn’t have any specific worries about not waking up. In fact, I was totally casual about having surgery, right up until the moment I stood in front of the doors to the pre-op area. Then I completely panicked and started crying. When I was in a bed before the surgery, I was crying and shivering, and this really great nurse brought me some blankets fresh from a hot dryer. And then the anesthesiologist came to talk to me, and then the doctor, and I felt better. Then I got a shot of something that calmed me down and it was all good. Before I knew it, I was wide awake again and minus one kidney. The hardest part for me afterwards was being so tired and weak and having to move slowly for a while. I don’t move slow!
Hope you’re feeling better soon. Keep taking good care of yourself and don’t rush it.