Dear Mr. & Mrs. Internet

I’ve been feeling down lately.

I was curious about it, so I looked up Midlife Crisis

Midlife crisis is a term used in Western societies to describe a period of dramatic self-doubt that is felt by some individuals in the “middle years” of life, as a result of sensing the passing of youth and the imminence of old age. Sometimes, transitions experienced in these years, such as aging in general, menopause, the death of parents, or children leaving home, can trigger such a crisis. The result may be a desire to make significant changes in core aspects of day to day life or situation, such as in career, marriage, or romantic relationships.

Yeah, that sounds about right.  Am I going to go out and buy a sports car, or hit on young blondes?  No, but I defintely feel ages hand on me.  I think it’s a combo of several things – my accident, lack of working out regularly, general aging (not 21 anymore), and a feeling that I couldn’t really define until now.

I got what I wanted.  I’ve been working so long to get to a certain point in my career and I’ve really achieved a lot of what I’ve been striving for.  I think the thing to do now is to really try to see who I want to be and what I want to do next.  As I posted before about Ruby and the Mac Mini, I think taking on a new challenge is going to help, but I definitely need to take some time and really look at everything I have going on and lay some plans.  I love my job and where I work.  Now to put some direction in there as well.

I’m also going to go have some blood work done because it’s possible that my med levels for my hypothyroidism might need to be changed.  I also seem to be working out things talking to you, so I’m going to try to do that more than I have been.

Who knows… 🙂